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brutal truth and honest prespective of what is 'sacred'.
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Monday, July 11, 2005
About a girl....



Her name is Septi Merliana
    She's Mine
She is 23 years old born in Jakarta
    She's Mine
She loves to cook, plays games, plays guitars
    She's Mine
She always speak up her minds and not affraid of it
    She's Mine
She loves Silver Queen
    She's Mine
She always confuses when there's a some point she dont have to be confused
    She's Mine
She got a way of cooling down my anger and libido :D
    She's Mine
She loves me for the way I am
    She's Mine
She always makes me miss her even like we were seperated for 1 hour
    She's Mine
Her Fave colour is Orange
    She's Mine
Her Fave flower is Lily
    She's Mine
Everything she does is magic
    She's Mine
We've been together for almost a decade
    She's Mine
I could've swear I saw a star in her eyes! REALLY!
    She's Mine
I love her and I protect, care and respect her
    She's Mine
I'm sounding a little bit possesive here
    She's Mine
I should stop saying "She's Mine" now
    She's Mine

 Yogi's learnings at 12:43 am
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
Another form of human arrogance.... FUCK!

Hmm... I must admit 1 thing... this entry is inspired by Ridwan's quote: "If you want to learn about life, why dont u learn from people who undertake life"

Okay, now what I discover here is How arrogant a human being can be...
What makes you think that the human is the only thing that deserves life?

Why it is HUMAN life that I must learn?? Don't ANIMALS have rights to LIVE? Don't Plants Have RIGHTS to live? U all arrogant bastard!

okay... *takes away angry tones and put on... ehm... scientific face*

Now... with this attitude this is no wonder why eviormental extortion goes on and on, in the name of human economy, Japan killed whales, US declined G-8 agreement to reduce waste and All the trees in UI's forrest has been cut down just becoz some stupid college student was killed there.

Life is fair in its form... it is the HUMAN that makes it unfair. Life is all about balance, there is no heat without the cold, no days withour nights, no Light without Darkness, no Good without Evil, no existance without... non-existance.

The life itself is there LONG before there is human, it survived LONG time before there was the first human ever.. so why are HUMAN think they are the only one that deserves to live?

IGNORRANT BASTARDS!

 Yogi's learnings at 11:45 pm
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Some people are just plain stupid...

To ridwan:
Sorry dude... this is gone too far. So i got to make u an example. Hope u can cope with that.


Here's the story, i was reading his blog then i spotted some cheesy poem wich is, to my opinion, needs critics bad. so I put on his tagboard "Jeh... jangan kek penyair picisan made in Indonesia dong, kebanyakan simbol tapi nda ada isinya"(this is due to the fact that I am just brutally honest) then he replied "Ahhh elo mana tau soal sastra Yog" Then he started to mock my blogs... telling me that banner looks like advertisement (it IS an advertisement u IDIOT!!), My typo, etc etc.

What bothers me is... instead taking my critics to improve himself, he choose to define me as threat. If only he is willing to throw his ego (oh he call me "egoistic", imagine that :D) then learn from me, *sigh*

People.. it is people like Ridwan and Andina who keep telling themself "I'm satisfied with my world, i dont need to see the truth beyond this superficial reality, so anyone telling me otherwise is wrong" and eventually they WILL define people like me, Ruli or Lurino as threats....

We may not be the best person that lies on these planets... but we CAN give you some enlightement.
Or maybe you can just simmering in your own ignorrance :D

PS: to Ridwan sorry dude.. you just cant win something with ignorrance.

 Yogi's learnings at 07:25 am
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Another Plagiator from Indonesia

After Dewa and Sheila on 7...

"Tulus" by Radja

This song is a cheap copy-cat from "Lately" by Stevie Wonder.
I hope those guys got hit by a truck and cut their heads off. Amen!

 Yogi's learnings at 12:46 am
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Saturday, July 09, 2005
United Spoiled Brat of Indonesia

After Lurino and Ruli has publish issues concerning this issue, i believe this is my turn :D

As I said on my previous post, these poor babies of Indonesia has gone thru such a spoiled past, yep their childhood is tainted. Well they have uniform mindsets, no self respect attitude, and very-very depends on others help.

What bothers me the most is, their superficial conciusness, wich causes them to attain such ignorant minds.

As children, they are spoiled with wealth, goods and stupid ascribed status (as Max Weber would put it) by their parents. Then, at school, from elementary to high school, they dont have example of self respect, creativity and they failed to achieve critical thinking. Thus when they beecome late teenager, they seek for their kind, work within groups to firm their artificial conciusness and finally they taking life for granted.

What I feared the most is their impact on the future of our nation. The first danger that headed upon our country is the ever-so-steady corruption. YES! Corruption, all these people only know how to gain things instantly, the are too lazy to get it in honest way. This is all due to the spoilment of their parents back in the past. And if this is a girl we're talking about, these girls is likely have the potential to urge her husband to corrupt just to please her material needs. (Yes Wawan, I'm warning you!).

Then the next danger this country has (if it not already lost) is our pride as a human being, a society and a country. Our culture has lost in vain, the next generation of leader will think western is ALWAYS RIGHT, our economic life is steered by other country, poverty everywere and we will look down to Indonesia from heaven (if there is any)with shame.

So yes, I agree with lurino, We have responsibility to enlight them. I hope this entry is one among many other ways.

 Yogi's learnings at 04:16 am
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Friday, July 08, 2005
Dream of Renaissance

We have forgot the true knowledge of humankind we once had. We starting to take things for granted. We forgot everything about it.... in the name of science.

We human have physical energy. It is what we see now in modern days. Infact this is THE only cosmos that we seize to believe. Eversince the renaissance age, we can only believe what we can see, hear, feel, smells and taste. In the name of logical thinking, we have failed to accept whatever that science cannot comprehends.

If only we can surpass this physical-framework

Oh God... why do You have to be so cool? I am seriously envy You!

 Yogi's learnings at 05:24 am
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What's wrong with Indonesia?

Okay2.... this title has been around too much, too many people has discuss it, wrote about it, conclude it and then bla bla bla.... But my dear friend, please let me blow out my humble opinion, in hope for better understanding, specially to myself about this matter. Let the essay begins...

Firstly the very first mistake of this country is the name "Indonesia" itself. Epistemologically, Indonesia means "the archipelago of India". This started out as the false navigation by Netherland who mistook Indonesia as the eastern part of India. So In this case, I strongly suggest our goverment to alter the name of our country, "Republik Nusantara" is much better choice.

Then the people, regarding this subject I will tear it into parts:

Family, the first intitution that a human found himself into. The intitution of family should prepare their newborn child to face the cruel reality of the world. Instead, in Indonesia, the family institution is injecting their children with violence, stupid culture and somtimes the parents' egoistic ambition (i.e: You must become a doctor someday, no matter what) They let their children watch TV wich full of it, they dress up  their children to their liking, they set the framework that their children must obey to.

Social Structure, so many things has been discussed on this part, so I just pass. (I am once sociology student... I get bored okay?) besides, it all lead to this final part:

The Culture, yes... What The Fuck is "Indonesian Culture"??
Culture, at this time has been synonymized with the word "religion" and "ideology" at certain point. So I'm gonna go with that flow.

Indonesian is well known for their "slave-culture" wich describing "dependent, lazy, cunning, stupid", well maybe this is a prejudice, but at some point this is the truth. This absurdity is founded and imbued with an Indonesian person eversince he was a young infant. This event brings us back to the issue we disscused earlier, the family. The family wich is NOT giving a room for their children to be creative is more likely produce a slave children, wich is no better than zombie.

Friends, I must let you know this fact: We are INFACT the mixture of three major race on the planet.
Indonesian People, like u and me consist the variety of three major humanrace variation, caucasoid, mongoloid and negroid. First, The caucasoid from caucas mountain spread southward and meed negroid in India, (remember, India once is a part of Africa) then meet up with Mongoloid at khmer wich one cluster of it (warman) become the ancestor of ours. So maybe right now is the WORST mixture that nature ever build, but there's a possibility that someday that our race became the BEST mixture. It also possible that our potential is FEARED by western so they bombard us with pop culture such as MTV, McDonalds, Starbucks ect.

So in conclucion my dear friends, Indonesian problem is a complex matter of both internal and external factor wich trancends to the web of trouble that struck our country.

I know my essay here is far from perfect. But I really do believe this will be a new view to debate ya?

 Yogi's learnings at 05:22 am
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Another intrepretation of me by Painfulbliss

Life is all about balance. Darkness can't be without light, and light can't be without darkness. You see everything through different angeles to gain perspective over situations. You act rather rational and people can find you stiff and/or emotionless due to this. Life is not really that good to you, yet it's not so bad. Like everything else, you need to balance it in order to find peace.

Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months" by Oscar Wilde.You are a very sarcastic person with a sharp tongue. You may not be the one always talking, but your mind is nevertheless critizing. You tend to have a cynical view on life itself and be somewhat withdrawn with who you really are. Society now is in your eyes corrupted and you wonder how the world will survive. And people are in your mind very ignorant and blind to the reality

Your connection with darkness is through your murderous ways/thoughts. You want to kill, get away with it and do it again and again etc. To be in charge of peoples lives, to decide if someone should live or die makes you feel powerful. And power is addicting. But chances are you haven't commited murder(torture/rape) yet. So far theese thoughts stay inside and haven't come to life. Most people wouldn't expect you to want to do this(maybe close friends/familymembers) since you look just like an ordinary Joe (but sometimes theese types stand out). In school you were likely the quiet one who seemed harmless. Isn't is fun to prove people wrong?

Your soul is happy.
You live life like its all a fun game. You don't like to take things seriously which is both good and bad. Due to your fun loving nature you don't like steady boyfriends that much. They come and go, and you simply aren't ready for your true love to come just yet. Generally you are a good friend who can cheer up those in need of it and are fun to hang out with. You hate feeling sad yourself and avoid it the best you can. Parties and social gatherings are your things, whether it be in small or large groups of people. It is no surprise that you are well-liked among your peers.

Your element is Wind. You are the guy/girl that is unpredictable. No one knows what you're going to do next and what you're in the mood for. Studying is not your thing and you would rather go to a party than stay home. Life is just for fun and you need to be free to live according to you. You waste no time on lies, if you feel or think one thing you say it even if it hurts. Of course, people may be quite upset but that doesn't really bother you. Its not that you don't care, because you do, but in these situations it's a waste of time. You live up in the clouds and are quite a dreamer about life. People often consider you beautiful, but harsh and they would think twice before getting to know you. But once they do, they'll learn that you are always willing to take yourself and your friends on adventures. Never will it be a boring time with you and your friends appreciate that. You are not often seen sad, but you have your times. If someone has been mean to you, you can quite easily trash-talk them for betraying you. Nevertheless, you are most of the time a good spirit who just want to have some fun. Rate and message!

Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and often try to figure out the meaning of life, why we are all here etc. You may not be so social, and often think twice before acting but those thoughts you have in your mind never stop flowing in. Sometimes you can be so concentrated you forget about other things that you have to do. Don't change, this world needs deep people.

Your "adult" life is full of despair, hate and un-pure things. Nothing is good anymore and you are generally depressed about it. You remember the good times from your earlier years: your childhood. Back then every feeling was nice and you didn't have to face the worlds cold heart. You wonder if you're even the same person anymore since you've changed so much. Sadly enough no one can control time.

You are sad because you are suppressed

You are a maniac killer.
It doesn't matter who they are and what they have or haven't done. You still want to kill them. And for a simple reason only; it's fun. Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe you have some sort of mental problems or you are this way because of previous deep scars, only you know. But now you are sadistic and maybe you only like to see a special group of people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you are not the most social person in the bunch and people think you are weird. That bothers you somewhat but atleast you can entertain yourself with daydreaming about killing them. After all, they have no idea what's coming.

You need adventures.
Real life has been very boring for you and you can't help but dream away. Nothing is exciting or fascinating in your life and can't understand why it all is so dull. You like having fun, but are probably not a bouncing person because of that. There is a probability that you either like to read/watch fantasy or similar genres, or have a creative side that lets you release your fantasy world.

Your power is: Transformation
Explanation: Unlike everyone else you can change your body materia and transform into anything (e.g. an animal). This can be used in good purposes for infiltrating evil headcuarters or adjust your physical abilities by transforming and therefor do better in battle. If turned to the evil side, a transfomer could manipulate the "good guys" by looking like their loved ones and break them down.
As a person you are dissapointed with life. You have not so many interests anymore and has become depressed. Of course you can be happy, but your happiness subsides quickly and don't last very long. You isloate yourself from people since you think they would only hurt you, but some part just wants someone equal who understands the pain. When you transform it gives you freedom and you can be anything but yourself. You often pity yourself but don't let people come near and know what's going on with you. But the thought of opening up and risking being betrayed is too strong and intimidating to even try.
Negative aspects: You carry much hate to the world and yourself and in the long run this could lead to dangerous thoughts (suicide/cutting/killing) though the last one is least likeable since you would probably just have too much guilt.


 Yogi's learnings at 03:30 am
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Whahahahah this is SOO ME!

Maniac killer

You are a maniac killer.
It doesn't matter who they are and what they have or haven't done. You still want to kill them. And for a simple reason only; it's fun. Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe you have some sort of mental problems or you are this way because of previous deep scars, only you know. But now you are sadistic and maybe you only like to see a special group of people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you are not the most social person in the bunch and people think you are weird. That bothers you somewhat but atleast you can entertain yourself with daydreaming about killing them. After all, they have no idea what's coming.

Main weapon: Explosives and torture equpiment
Quote: "Insanity: a perfect rational adjustment to an insane world" - R.D. Lang
Facial expression: Wicked smile



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 Yogi's learnings at 03:29 am
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Eruditium Vivum

I have lost the will to rage
The time for pain slip away
Walking through rainy streets alone
I stopped for inhaling my prescious breath

I look around to the world that spins around me
I cant understand this absurdity
I keep begging someone up there
To show me conciusness

The way your light sorrounding me,
it should've make a difference

So I walk upon high
to watch the world beneath me
Listening to the reality
To the sounds of its violence

Once again Im sorrounded by the black cloud
This false conciusness tearing me apart
The endless pain...
of hyprocisy

It is used to be so easy
When I was just a small infant
With my virgin mind
And life is taken for granted

Can a man lost his soul?
Lose his understanding?
The way your heart sounds
Makes all the difference

Another chance to learn
I see new horizon
With new sets of minds
This trangression has renewed me

Once I search for love
Now I search for life

I'm learning to live

 Yogi's learnings at 02:50 pm
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HI THERE!

I'm Yogi! *insert cheering sounds here*
I am also known as AnjingBalap on I-Net

Im just another student who tries to understand the world in wich he's living.
I'm a musician
I'm a bass player
I also good with other instrument
I'm a MIDI composer

I love my girl very much
I love ice cream and home made soto ayam
I love jazz and rock
I love LIVING

I hate stupid people
I hate FPI
I hate anak gaul
I hate capitalism
I hate stupid preman
I think Soeharto must die
I think rapist must die too

My favorite lines are:
- Peoples tend to die
- Shits tend to happens
- God tends to be almighty

I'm a threat for any oppresion
I'm a friend to nature (although i like to litter abit)
I think people are made to think.

So... think and write your thoughts here:

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We can learn from the past but those days are gone....
We can pray for tommorow but there might not be one


well time always heal
time brings new friends..
oh that reminds me!
here's some friends o' mine links!


This is some blogs with real deep insight by my inner circle:

Ruli's Infidel Fire
Lurino's Asylon
Ferdy's Mindumpster
Sisie's Psychedeliccabaret
Bimo's Atziluth, The Domain of God
Sam's STiale Standing
Afzons's 4JJI ampunin gue dong
Babol's Labyrinth

And another life long learning by some of my friend:

Ridwan's Postcard from Asgard
Gatorz's Daydreamer
Sind's Listening to smiles
Laila's por-que?
Wenni's EssoWenni
Nie's Tears That Belongs to Heaven

God Bless u all mates!


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